My ramblings.

And another day, and another urge to update this blog.

But what DO I write about? No real drama in my life at the moment, pretty much boring. So I think today I'm going to do a little soul searching.

What IS love? Too much has been written about it in novels, talked about in movies. So much so, that now when I say I "love" a person, it feels like hypocrisy. How do you know if you love a person? If you hang out with them a lot, like their company? But that holds true for a lot of people in my life, and I dont feel the same way about them. Where does one cross the line between a really good friend and a love? Or maybe you love all your good friends? But when do you start giving that ONE person so much importance, so much that you allow him to control what you're feeling?

A fight, and you're upset. A simple declaration of love, or some sweet words, and you're on 7th heaven. Why do we give someone else so much power over us, and trust them not to misuse it? Which, 9 times out of 10, people do. I've seen too many people messing with others minds, and yet I refuse to learn. Stupid, aint it? Love IS stupid, I guess. I realise I'm rambling now, but it feels nice to ramble, just to talk and talk, without caring if anyone else is listening or not.

But, I promise myself, no longer will you have the power to disturb me. One year was enough, no more.

Even if you take away my friends, I'll get them back. And one day, I'll move away from the shadow that is you.