First day at Singapore

This is something I wrote while at Singapore, my first day there. Just wanted to post it.

So I'm sitting here in my room at Singapore, in my pj's with Pintu at my side, and I cant help but feel awfully homesick. It's a new place, but that doesnt bother me, the distance from my friends does. I seems like a child, or worse a "sensitive" girl, who cries at every occasion. But I'm missinf everyone so much, from the useless conversations to just, being there. Maybe it's just because its my first day here and its been a long and tiring journey, or perhaps its even separation from the internet.

But most probably, its the not being able to tell someone all that you saw, share your annoyances and to take pleasure in your happiness. It's the he not being able to be there for him when he needs me the most. Or it's just, the distance. Oh god, all I want to do is read his typing, or listen to some lame joke that only he can crack. I wonder if he misses me as much, or maybe, not at all. Maybe he doesnt even realise I'm not there, wrapped up in his own life. Not that I blame him for that, infact that is what I hope, that he's happy in himself and doesnt bother about me. I can handle myself, he doesnt need to mess his exams for me.I dont even know why I care this much, its just that I do. Maybe, just, MAYBE, I am falling in love with him. Oh god, just let us prove we can handle the distance, that we CAN make it work.

And now, as I sleep with Pintu tightly curled in my arms, I hope tomorrow will be better and everything will work out. Atleast, I hope so. And soon I'll be back, blabbing away about my day while you patiently listen, and make me laugh, once again.

I want to tell you about the awful strawberry drink I had in the morning, how I almost fainted from the lack of food. About how beautiful Singapore is at times, and how things dont fit because there is no you. How sparse my room is, and how bad the food is. And, most of all, how my eyes are blurry and my tears are smudging the pages. Or, maybe not that.

First day in Singapore, and I'm terribly homesick.