So, I write in this blog after a long time, trying to clear up my mind which is SO messed up at the moment. At this very moment, there are two guys in my life, let's call them A and T. Now, both are really special to me, perhaps T a little more. Okay, the truth is that i, the stupid little idiot that I am, am in love with T. Now, that shouldnt really have mattered, but T, cant really commit to me now, because of various reasons which would make this blog too long to be written in one sitting. So me and T decided to remain best friends, and try to work out a solution ourselves. Which, I might add, wasnt very near in the cards. And today, a very fine day, in a moment of emotional conflict, I said yes to A. Now, let me introduce A. He used to be a VERY good friend of mine, but things came in between us (namely, my darling ex) and we drifted apart. Well, sortve. So out of all the people in the world, A was the least likely person for me to date. Coming back to the present, I am really worried about A. I dont want to hurt him, but I will end up doing that anyway, because I dont love him. Atleast, not now. But T tells me to keep up with the relationship, perhaps to have me off his back. Whatever it be, I've decided to stick with my decision of dating A, and seeing how things go. Who knows, (even though I doubt it much) it might spark a bit of jealousy in T, and see me in a different light. Till then, I'm in the middle of a game which seems like will hurt more than just A.

I feel like a bitch, now. -_-